Doechii, fresh off her 2025 Grammy win for Best Rap Album with Alligator Bites Never Heal, has opened up about a pivotal moment in her life when she overcame suicidal thoughts.
In a recent interview with The Cut, the rapper recalled experiencing severe bullying in sixth grade, which led her to consider taking her own life.
“I was getting bullied so bad that I was thinking about killing myself,” Doechii revealed. However, a powerful realization changed her perspective. “I realized, ‘Oh, f—, I’m gonna kill myself and then I’m gonna be the only one dead. The bullies aren’t gonna be with me, and everything they said is not coming with me either.’ I would just be gone.”
Instead of succumbing to the pain, she made a bold decision. “And then I was like, ‘F— that! F— that s—! I’m not going for that!’ And this wash of peace came over me, and I received ‘I am Doechii,’” she explained. She described the revelation as a divine message, one that affirmed her self-worth and purpose.
The Denial Is a River artist emphasized how embracing her identity gave her strength. “I made a choice, a decision. I am the most important character in this movie. This is my motherf—ing movie.”
Doechii’s candidness about her struggles aligns with her dedication to transparency in her music. She cites Lauryn Hill as a major inspiration, striving to evoke the same emotional connection in young Black girls who listen to her music. “The feeling that I have when I listen to The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill is the same feeling I want some other Black little girl to have when she listens to me,” she said.
As Doechii continues to rise in the industry, her story serves as a testament to resilience and self-empowerment.
